Sick-ed.I just rotted the whole day at home doing slightest stuffs.
Packing for kick-boxing camp.
Packing for thailand trip.
& nothing else.
Bless me to get well before sunday.

A change of plan again.Gor gonna join us =)
and we are extending out stay to 2/3 more days
which means I will come back only on earliest thursday.
& after that would be rushing to camp without rest.
If I don't that means I would miss the first day of camp.shrucks.

M&M don't forget.
B&W I shall remember.
perhaps and perhaps.

hahs,din went to Msia as planned.

cos it was raining heavily.So we went to visit Ryan =)

happy happy happy.

than after that went Sim Lim Square with Mummy

& like after so long,we brought the wireless router and a mouse(seductive purple)

and we went shopping.

but without any rewards for me.I want to find the black transparent one!!been finding it since the trip to Msia in July.LOLS.

and went to find Dad for steamboat.We passed the hot air balloon.

I want to try it,at least once in this life time.hahs.

family day = happy day.

Mummy,Ryan and Me.Like father,like son.I want to spend more time with you.xpecially this holiday.

Even without you,the smiles on my face won't fade off.
I wanna live a life happier than before.
& it shall happen.

I would miss the chance to go back OP as a graduate.
I would miss the chance to see my dearest Ms Tan,Mr Pang,Mr Tan,Mr Chew and so on.
I would miss the chance to see my beloved pei yi,shi yi,lilian and my darlings.
I would miss the chance to hang out with my dearest ppls.

Cos Im going Msia soon.
gonna return only around sat.
& to fly to thailand on sun.
What a buzy corinne Im!!hahs.
and I would miss my time to watch my uncompleted gongs and just started huan huan ai.
LOLS.this holiday is too much to be enjoyed =)
peeps miss me though.

Future,what do I actually want to be.
With a diploma in biz management,what can I do.
How far can it bring me to.
Been thinking this through on my journey to school.
Everything is just in confusion.



I don't know why it happened again.
Blurness and blocked ears.Twice this year,this is a bad sign.
My stamina,strength and everything is not as good as before.
And all through the training I can't put in any strength.
That explains my lousy standard.
Zhi wei make us do tan tui shi lu from 1 to 9!!
I never memorise it okay.
I nearly die from it,lucky I did it with nichloas and monfort guy(yes,name forgotten)
hahs,so funny.
I don't know why Im so stupid to do 9 instead of 8.
That caused everyone to laugh.
Then nich and me was made to redo 9 for two times.
cause we were laughing through,yes now it went into my head.
Then zhi wei ask us to look at botak to learn.bleah =p
I win.Monkey stunt.
Then a mini celebration for the sept babies.As commented it was by procedure.
Hahs.Happy Birthday to shu yan,jiang da and monfort guy!!
Perhaps is cos we learnt it,that why we aren't like them.
We are not so keen on learning.Attitude is all that matters.

Im lost at words.
There's a limit to patient.

Will not be online regularly,people miss me bah.
I saw alot of misses in my tagbox.hahs.
Buzying catching up with gongs,thks gor for always getting me what I wanted.
But is also cos by getting me it,he can hog on to my lappy for hours.hahs.
so people if you seen me signing in msn and not replying,is not me.
so anything important/not important message me.
I miss lots of people.

would tommorow be the day.
I would face it with courage then.
Hallo,friend.

Is not a good monday,monday blues I supposed.
Rotted the whole day at home =(
Mum kept my allowance and allowed me to go out.
I miss my friends,I miss the fun.
thanks hubby for the new skin at my new blog
http://secertstheyneverknew.blogspot.com/
shh,what dere is a secret okies?
hahs.Im purely too BORED!!


Without a destination doesn't seems fine
I don't know what lies ahead.
Somehow I missed you(s)

My sunday was so much better compared to the last.
I slept till 1 plus only to wake up by Jia Wen;she miss me so much =p
than went NP for lunch with her,chatting and chatting.
and we went her house to chat again.
We seems to have endless topic.Hahs,and she showed me her treasure box
which is only 1 photo album and 1 small box.
Hahs,looking through brings back many memories,those silly times.
If I could turn back time;I would treasure you,I won't be so silly and unreasonable.
What a silly past;yet sweet memories.

After after so long,the truth just came back again.The guilt surrounded me.Is me and them who caused everything to be as it is today.If I had not make that choice,perhaps he won't change and till how he is today.He won't enter another world and leading on to many many misery.There is no room for regretts now,there is nothing I can do to salvage anything.At least I should be glad that things turned out better for now,we are all friends again,and yesterday we will never forget.It seems to be like the past when we hanged out together.Now all I wann is ur happiness.You mean alot to me in the past and even now.My best-boy-friend.

After after so long,I finally packed my stuffs,both personal and studies one.Look at this pile of books and a RED file.I hope I won't have to open it in september.I wish I don't need to take any SUPP paper. And I packed my treasure box and I realised that I had a big box as chel but but my is so much neater than hers,look
My diaries and friendship books.
boxes after boxes and I packed a lil bit of my photos and found many many beautiful childhood memories.

Even at young,I love bears so much,and till now I guess I have over 4o bears at home.HAHS.and my parents must have taught me how to be emo.Shall upload more soon.

& after after so long,you are out of my mind.

Memories are just memories.

Im back from a exhausting/exciting/unbelievable/ outing.JIA WEN gao us until we all sneigh.HAHS.my day was great as as any for the past 3 days,filled with fun,joy,love and laughter.First and foremost,today is my brother big day;his bday;I din get anything for him,kind of guilty.He so bhb say wann me give him red packet.LOLS.They brought ryan back.

You will be my baobei ryan forever.I wanna see your smiles and happiness.I wanna more time with you.For anyone information,as long as there is a chance to see ryan,I will miss out almost everything,unless is examinations.And since is gor bday,he had a "cake" since he don't want a cake.But it was yummy =).Happy moments does not last long,around 4 we send ryan home.And off I went for another bday celebration,my LAO GONG kai en.=).We got a baby pooh for her.I wann it also,DI okay??Hahs.My first shock was henry was there with them.Is like HUH/WHAT/LOLS.And like any other times,the first thing he saw me and I saw him was to fight.Lols.Seriously lah,we really cannot don't fight for one whole day,there isn't a day in my memory that I don't fight with him;even those days when we were together.That was even worse,they said they always see us da qin ma qiao.LOLS.shall not elborate more,later sarah =(.After one big big round it got back to her.Bullier you must last long with her okay?Oh yes I did not mention JIA WEN and me sneaked in to kbox room,they had a 8 person package but dere were 10 of us.shh.and we got a cake from Mr field.So nice and yummy.

The guys,typical chor ah bemg.I find them super comical.Kids are kids.How can I ever ever fall for one of them and to be more exact he was my di/bf/lao gong/enemy for the last 2 years in OPSS.This is super hilarious but ultimately I knew why and I never regretted being his girl,a long long his-story dragged over years,but to be exact we were only together for maybe 3 months or even lesser,ai mei and those really LOLS times we had.

Zhu gong,in this life I will never forget you,best boy-friend forever.There is only one regrett in this relationship,the christmas present wasn't a complete one.But you shall never knew what it is.

After k-box the girls went to do some shopping,while the guy(s) went smoking.Hey hallo the whole world know you smoke okay?Im not dumb neither am I retarded.And for ur information I been so long with you do you think I not know kiss goodbye is your fav song,but aniway I was really surprised it was still this song.You know I know.We bought a nice top for PEI LING,ser wei I wann my pooh!!then dere were li-siaoing of that Mr gay voice.What the,why must always link me and him together.Tootpid sia.He is only my di and will always be my di.I shouldn't say I tiong xim kh,cos he make me chem xim.Right now,I don't know where am I heading towards,yet another gemini or...DA LA JIAO ding li,I not a flirt okay.HAHS.Then we walked to plaza sing.Then most went to play arcade,while me,kai en and sharon went for a lil chilling.Went buying alcohol after that.Lols JIA WEN so chou lao,she can buy neh,I also can.Hahs,don't think I small small cannot 18 huh!This is what I told a manager of 7-11 last time.It was super duper funny.I know is illegal but a little alcohol won't harm.HAHS.Then we all drink drink and what happens after was so HAHAHSHAHHAHS.no further elaboration shall be made,except for ser wei is PERVERT and henry is XIANG YAN SUPPLIER.It was overly/extremely hilarious.I was thinking if I was the one who ..... would you ......

JIA WEN lao gong & CORINNE lao po forever in love.

She is lost in her tracks.
If you love her bring her back to the track again.
I was trying to try out the effects in the dark and I shot this

but is this really my inner thought.

I don't know.

A great day out with girl-friends.

Tootpid chel make me watch 881 at 1050a.m.

CHEL you must love me big big okie?

881 was nice,and those hokiens songs really not not bad.

If you have the time you can afford to wait but what if you don't

what if there is no more chances for a tmr,no one knows what is ahead.

You nvr know if you would be around tmr,for life is always so unpredictable.

Don't be silly to think that I will ahem over you,Im not that tootpid,I got brains kay.

But Im so =) you call me like right after you woke up.Yes Im wondering now why.

why am I talking abt a thing that happen one month plus ago.SHRUCKS.is ahead not behind girl.

Went to chel house,she got a big big treasure box,and so so many stuffs.

I want many many boxs,not boxers alright.

Then walked back to NYP,Im so glad that I got into NYP instead of elsewhere.

Cos the journey from home till here is not really far as compared to TP and NP.

and most importantly I met my loving classmates BM0713,four months we been through abit with each others,many things are different now but I know friendship will remains.Shall post more about them one day.Then went to kick-boxing room to pay the camp fees.So so charmed by watery eyes;suddenly watery eyes shines today.Hahs.Then went bu-gis walk walk,after awhile xiao wei joined us.There are so many many things I wanna get.Money money and money.Then we saw wen jie,he is $#@ so unsecretly.bad huh.Then juan juan came.Ding Ding,Wei Wei,Juan Juan and Ling Ling went shoping.I bought myself stuffs for a special person.I shall do that everyday;don't be lazy corinne.Dinner-ed and went walking again,not to mention we were camworing always,nice neoprint we took.I specially love this.

Yes,I know what you are thinking.I did not kiss her alright is just a angle problem.My secret.Home-d,then me and ding chatted back abt water eyes and guys again.Yeah right Im so so into him,watery eyes.Now again let the pics do the talking...

credits to ding li and juan ru.

I miss you all big big=)

sometimes it just went back to the track
or am I heading towards another.
I don't know.
cancer have a tendancy to like gemini.

I tried to find the chinese lyrics for this song but to no avail.
Xin Tai Ruan.
A very old song by Ren Xian Qi.
If you understand the lyrics you would know what Im thinking.
Ai mo da yu xin si.
I don't know,I don't know.
is all so confusing,contradicting.
memories is all I had now,maybe.
or perhaps Im ******* for .......

Is a long long journey;though just 2 days but many many thoughts of it.

just talk about yesterday,studying and memorising wasn't great naturally.

My memorising skills is really deteriorating after so many many months.

For O level social studies and history I can memorise 40 questions easily

and is really memorising,the only good thing Im at.Say Hi to my glourious history

first in social studies and history for dono prelim or O.=)

but the saddest thing is now for even 10 chapters Im so dead. Real memorisation

started only at 11,and I slept at 1,so you can imagine how much went into my brain.

Bad things aside,yesterday Ryan came back,though for a short while only

but it still it brightens brightens my day =)

Im guess one day he will be a talented musician,hope he can learn piano.Guys who plays piano well are so attractive.No Im not talking about benny,lols.sometimes I wonder why can't I have the best of the world,I can't have my love-d ones with me.This is life,not chosen by me.

Today was great,not the management paper,silly me lost many many marks due to blurness of me,shrucks,but I wann a pass and a slightly better grade can?Im PRESUMING that I will be getting lots of Ds.faints.It nearly past my mind,we saw yr in the morning and it was so so amusing and comical.Then after our papers,we went for movie at AMK hub.Dingli,Xiao Wei,Shermin,Sndy,Rachel,Juan Ru,Yvonne,Lyon and Benny =)
secret,is so so nice and touching.Hey but I did not tear.I love the songs,and most importantly the pianos parts.I wann my future BF to neng weng neng wu,qing qi shu hua yang yang jing tong,shi ba fan wu yi.Lols where the earth can I find such guys,near to perfrection.Though I knew of a few.Like you,you and you.Im supernormal profit,ding li is normal profit and benny you are subnormal profit.HAHS.And afterwards left me,ding li,sndy,juan ru,xiao wei and benny who went towning.Then one by one left till it left me,sndy,xiao wei and juan ru,the ultimate four survivors.Had great time with them,you know when 4 girls get together we would @#$.I went home with a reward for myself-a dress at $17++,yeah right Im trying to be more feminine to attracts guys.Lols.And maybe start wearing heels again,Lols.This is mid-summer madness.

I looked into the mirror and found that this wasn't me.For any one interest this is hachiko =) Iloveitsmallsmall,HELOVEMEBIGBIG.Alrights now let the pics do the talking.

Bezzie classmates make my poly life rocks.I will miss you all =)

POM is gonna be a gone case tmr.
shrucks.How can I forget abt a whole lecture.
and for the best thing ever I have not started on real memorising.
look at the time left now to exam started less than 11 hours.
please please let the chimilogy of POM gets into my brain
and for the most important thing to pour out tmr onto my answer script
now I don need a A,I wann a pass.
alrights I should get goin and start burning midnight oil.=X

Im troubled by many many.

Finally,after 3 papers I see myself smilling =)
quite contradicting though
statistic is my weakest module
I had not pass a paper till now and yet I think
I will pass this time.
The only module that Im confident in passing.
A is a dream to me.
How can I be so dumby to use z test instead if t test
and for any worse case I know how to do both.
Well as long as I pass,I guess nothing else matters.

"I got teeths on my right legs"
that what hui von said.clumsy-ness of me had resulted in my shoe being
SPOILT.shall show how disgusting it look-ed.
so this means I have no shoe for tmr.
Resort to wear heels.oh yea.
Im so so looking foward to tmr'secret.=)

I saw so many many wushu peeps today.
First was cheng meng,my IDOL!!
look at the way he da nan quan.I bet you would say stylo
Then I saw the donno who,year 1 also.People are like joining and disappearing.
I don't even know how many totals year 1 peeps we have.
Some MIA for exam,some for donno what reason.
This is how poly CCA is different from secondary.
And I saw hx,I guess he is aiming for A.
Buisness students are super duper competitive,while me
I just hoped for a PASS in a module.LOLs.
And on my way back I saw brandon.
Just wondering why I saw so many but not you

No matter how hard I try,I still don't understand you.
I tried to walk into your world but you turn me away.
Yeah right.If only I could and I would...

I thought I let go.but NO.
the hardest/complicated/chim word that could get into my head is
LET GO.
one month it had been,for a short relationship of 18days,it took longer than any other.
for you
were the one who make me believe in love again
were the one who brought the smiles on my face
were the one who promised me never to let me be alone
were the one who did the silliest thing ever
were the one who remembered every details of me
were the one who treated me as a princess
were the one who would wake up early just for the pack of choclate
were the one who motivated me to listen and do my tutorial
were the one who did many,many things that no one did.
or simply cos you are the one


you told me you would not find your dear dear for long
but how can I believe it,should I be happy over or should I be sad.
Is like telling me Im single but I don't wann you.
Time and time again I told myself,let go.
Time and time again I thought it no longer matters.
Time and time again I said you are not the one.I've gotten over you
but No.


kh;
I know I got to forget and let go you,the hardest thing ever.
Learn to live without you as my love.One day you would find your love,who you will love her perhaps more than you used to love me,care for her more than you used to care for me.
But ultimately I knew you would be my only christain bf and I would be your only non-christian gf.I guessed none of us would take the risk again.A hurt is enough to last a life time,and the memories would last forever.I wish-ed and wish-ed for alternative.Perhaps this upcoming holiday would let everything fade,like you said the feeling will go.But you will live in my heart forever.

everything is just not going the right way.

I just knew that that accounting supp paper is waiting for me.
yeah right.the balancing and profit and loss just went to sleep.
recociling and adjusting just can't be balance.Theories,what the heck are they.
The rest it wasn't any better,prepared to get a D,E,F.
We.Dingli,shermin,juan ru,rachel,lyon,benny,zack went to causeway point
agreed that we would study for statistic,but in the end.We ended up doing nothing.
Ated donuts and pasta mania.It been long since dere a big group of us goin out together.
Definitely it was filled with laughter,they had stomach ache which is contagious.LOLs.
Im looking foward to wednesday,not the paper but the time after that.
MOTIVATION=secret,881,alone and SHOPPING and .
alright Im tired so gonna get some sleep,I gotta buck up for statistic REALLY!!

good lucky
for all taking accounts paper tmr
especially BM0713,cos I bet you don't wish to see her as much I don't.
yesterday was so not a productive day,basically slacking and slacking.
cos statistic is giving me a big headache and shrucks,xiao wei reminded me that
POM got to be memorised and I have not started at all.Still say I wanna get A.
faints.And I realised my blog look so ugly with the pics hanging all over,so Ms Seah,where is the skiny you promised??Alright I got to get back to accounts.Random pics.

I thought I looked like sheereen more than myself.
Things have changed,everything is different.I don't even know myself.Yet I wish-ed the other way round.If life is like a circle,can I get back to the other side instead of this.many feelings kept unknown.

STATISTIC SUCKS BIG TIME!!!

AFA is so much nicer;not to mention mangement.
this is a BORING,BORING saturday.
I shall make sure my next one would be fun.
I wann training in tatami room!
I wann fun and not boring stuffs!!
Im so so so BORED
I don wanna study.study.study.
I love hachiko small small.Hachiko love me big big.<3

Down with 3 mores BFs to be with me.=)
Econs was quite with me through the paper,just that I got mixed up a number of stuffs.
I know I did okay for section A,section B one question =) the other.OMG,pray hard for that.
And section C is in a mess.I don't need A or B.Give me a C or should I say a pass,I will be contented enough.I don't want to seat in the front,it sucks.Lecturers are talking loudly like no body biz,excuse me we are having an exam now and you are disrupting us.What can I do?Telling them would only create more trouble though is right that we should have silence in examination hall.For any worse case,the sport hall is so cold,thanksful I got my jacket with me.If not I can forget about doing the paper in peace.Last but not least Im freaking hungry throughout.Went for a meal right after,a little revision for accounts.shurcks Im gonna to buck up for that.A 100% PASS is a MUST.Benny and Sndy came and find us later and we walked to yck,okay sndy shh,thats our lil secret.It was simply and absolutely hilarious.
And I got another secret.Hachiko is my new "BF".shall disclose "his" identity next wed,shh is a secret.BUT too bad by any case;someone know already.My gemini "prince" =))
alright,"he" will cheer me up,be with me through the end of time
and not hurt me like you do.Times flies like no body biz,it been 4 weeks since that day
lyon asked me if I have let go?
I thought through,afterall he may not the one for me,by character wise we are from two different world,a common in us would be our passion for wushu.Elsewise I don't know.From strangers,we became friends,to good friends and to lovers.And now we are back to square one.Friends,I want to be ur best girl-friend but look I know circumstances had make it such a case that it would be hard.No longer waiting,just let things be as it is.Im not a dumb dumb to miss out any chances in life to be with my prince,cos Im a princess,who deserve the best as you said.Alright our past is now a story,a his-story to me.Life is ahead,looking back will only bring me tears and a thousand why..Like benny says ONE LIFE LIVE IT.I don't wanna have any regretts in life,I don't wanna to restrict,I wanna be myself.For this love,I did what I could to salvage but you chose it this way.Maybe one day in future we may be back together again,as what we thought see how things goes.But I know we will never be the same again.Relationship is like a bamboo,when its young we don't know how to cherish it,one day when it breaks.Is hard to put back together,even if you put them back together it would not piece perfectly,the line will be there forever to remind us of the past.Alright lets just hope that this thought of mine will stay long and not be shaken by anything.At least we would be happier this way,right?

You are forgotten and yet remembered.

JIA YOU
and
GOOD LUCK
for all taking microecons paper tmr =)
I must pass it!!
perfect competition,monoploy,demand curve,supply curve,LDMR and all
I know I used to hate you all
but please please let me remember you all
for tmr at least,the important 2 hours 30 mins.
shruks.I gonna get back to them before they fa pi qi and not cooperate with me tmr.

dere is no time for anything else but

studies

If only life could be simpler.I would be a happy girl
but NO,is far too complicated for me to understand;to adapt to.
sometimes I wish-ed I could fade away in this world,no one bother,no one cares anyway
but I know ultimately dere always peoples who are hurt by my silly acts so I choose to remain
in this realistic,saddist world.If only I could,I would choose to be a child,to not know anything and everything.I wish-ed for a peaceful life,I wished no more problem for us,but I know this is just a start of another BIG issue,its not gonna stop as it is.I wanna concentrate on my studies instead of it,is hell to hard a problem for me to handle.I shall leave it as it is.perhaps they would give me a pleaseful answer,no one is to be hurt in the end,get it?

no longer counting cos it doesn't matters.

I live my life as it is

without you.

outdoor studies wasn't much productive for me
went school for some revision on econs.shrucks.
I realised how backward Im compared to shermin & xiao wei
gosh,is way way behind,I gotta buck up.I want a pass =)
maybe a A in management,the rest I don't think I can do well.
sometimes they just came back,reminding me of you
been trying to cheer a friend up
but ended up I thought I could jolly well tell them to myself.
is not worth,is tootpid.so stop being a silly.
it won't bring you anything but tears.
a day of sadness is a day.
a day of happiness is also a day.
why not be happy??don't be a dumb dumb.the hurt is enough to last a life time.

dere is nothing interesting for me to post.shruks.

well I been online for only few hours lately,and not for leisure but revision=X

can you believe it?I don't.hmm I miss these ppls

My baobeis of bm0713;and the rest too =) days are left with lil laughter w/o their nonsenses.
lets all JIA YOU for our exam and after that enjoy ourselves.
as what shermin says xian ku hou tian.=).
I miss my OP girls greatly.lets have fun after exam.
I miss my darlings.I wanna go out with you all.
I miss raven peeps.JUSTIN,where is my BBQ?joleen pester him please.and last but not least
a early HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my <3 XIAO YAN
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shrucks,I sense jealousy in myself.this should not be the way girl.
you gotta take everything as it is.One day he will find his dear de,and you
said you would give him your blessing,don't forget.don't forget ur 4 great guys are here for you,especially in this crucial period.shrucks.

24days.11days.5days.

all work and no play is not CORINNE.shrucks
this is just a start;the worst is coming.
maintaing a friendship like this is hard,I don't even know if it would last.

but I hope it will and it must.

23days.10days.4days.

today was much enjoyable than yesterday
but Im so tired after a whole day.=X
the furnitures arrived early,causing me to lose my beauty sleep.shrucks.
moving up to 4 and a half floor;cause Im sleeping at the top of the double decker.
I wondered if I would dream of wushu one day and start practising
and like what mum says "drop down the bed".Hahs.
went out to study with wan qi & lin juan.studied for one lecture.
cos we were mainly chatting,tootpid lah,they keep say JH;the man.OPS.
and after so so long,I saw H.and our way of communication is so special.
using finger;only 1.I was =),he was wearing the shirt I bought for him last year.
but is my first time sawing him wearing that.a special feeling I guess.
ding li joined us around 5,another company for craps.K-box Im awaiting =)
went back home only to find that qi econs is with me shrucks.I have to make a special trip.dots.
maybe Im used to it;but I would rather not.chan kit teng tur.

22days,9days,3days.

last day of school term again;was this one better?No I supposed
cos dere are no holiday coming up till after our major exam.shrucks.
attended management lectures after about 4 weeks of MIA,due to laziness & e-learn.
presentation was done by the males,but some sounded really erm.hm.
lol.did my taste dropped.shrucks.had a chat with Qi only to realise that we think differently
went to south-canteen for breakfast/lunch since we had 3 hours free.
food was cheaper,okay.and we had fun cam-woring dere,juan ru.send me the pics.Hahs.
went for econs lec and printed stuffs.a whole lot.at last found all the tutorials.thks xiao wei=)
most of them got you-ed,but me,went home to sleep but in the end.I found myself tossing around;thinking nonsense stuffs again=x but I know Im happier now.
with friends & family around;life can't be any better though sian cos of exams.

3 weeks;8days;2days.

I presume this would how my day would be for the next
12 days at least = sian-sation.
wake up,plan timetable,start revision.
and slacking here and then.finding chocs to eat,and those junk food.
never mind at least I started some revison for microecons,is the first one comin up.
shruks.this is life man,so boring and so here Im trying to find some fun & joy
but I didn't.shrucks.on the tv at 6++ and the news I saw was on dragonboat.shruks.
Im used to the fact,okay.this would how life would be,until I meet my destined one.
perhaps to fill it with colors again,to give me a fairytale again.
sometimes I wondered if it was either you who had some mental illness at that time or
it was me having hallunication then,I seems to know 2 different you,before and after.
whatever the case,they remain as memories,when others had long relationship takes only a short while to recover,I called myself tortise,Im not that reactive towards unhappy stuffs.
I want to live a better life than before,dote myself more,have the greatest joy and fun everyday
but I know all this would have to wait,till after 22.shrucks.so within this period of time.
friends like Ms Seah,Leong and Mr Goh x2,please take care of ursleves.you,please take real good care of urslef,filling in the form for wushu declaration.I knew how many "YES" you would have ticked last year.Perhaps one of the most ever.I find this contradicting,how did you ever ended up in wushu and dragonboat and for any worst scenario sport & wellness.If one day it ever happen again.I don't know how would I react.I was there on a past attack but I don't know you then,but afterall these...PLEASE don't let me witness it.I may just be your friend now but you matters to me,for the past,for everything.best-boy-friend forever.

8 years it had been.
Im wondering if you are living well,staying happy...
should be in army I supposed,or in polythenic/JC last year.
should be in many many relationships after so long.
perhaps you had forgotten me,but I did not.
Always it had been,and will always be my wish to see you once again.
I don't know where you are,I had no means to contact you.
maybe if fated,we will meet again one day.but perhaps I won't even know it was you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you and your sis and SINGAPORE =)
I prayed that ur dreams & hope will come true.
boy you was the one who taught me how is it to be like to remember someone forever.
and you are one of those that will be forever remembered.
thanks for the cute/silly/dumb/sweet childhood memories,it wasn't love then.maybe that is called infatuation,if not you would be my longest bf already.Hahs.

nights,my love-d ones.

don't mess up my day.
I know today would be the day
after three weeks.shrucks.
everything gonna be fine,and it got to be.

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microecons was normal,here is the hunk that keep us awake for this term

next time would be macroecons,will we get another classmates lik him..

yeah right,benny best friend as he claimed.Pei Yi see this,he is so much much
hotter and handsome than marcus.He got the looks,the height and damn macho.
I want my future bf to be like him,I know of someone who is not as good but I want him can?yeah right FAT HOPE!!
statistic was alright,it was the last,understood a lil more.JIA YOU i wanna pass.
then went for wushu,training was normal,had a game which I still don't quite understand.
I hoped we could be like them even though @#% but still good friends,shrucks.but this is not possible.
3 weeks.I went,gym duty.He went,out with family.today,I went,last min gym duty.shrucks.
dinner-ed at sam bf dere with gor & jie.that explains why I rushed out.
on the way back home,looking through messages,this cannot be explained,it just rolled down.shurks.girl this is not the first day Im telling you,don't forget what you promised.

yes.here Im blogging while waiting for the three mei-nu to finish up thier frontpage project.
shruks,Im dead beat;from studying for a pathetic 2hours(not even).HXW you this naughty girl.
bless me,i have just started on my revison.HAHS.and here we are chatting on the same time with a gayish voice.OMG.so funny =p
at last;frontpage group project was completed =).I don't know how retarded Im,when I actually know what share border is about and what lamely stuffs did I replied to Mr Tan.shrucks and in anyway our project did not have it.shrucks;but anyway is over,all I hoped was a pass.
We got back our POM grades,did pretty well,this is the only module Im going to score,yeah.


today is BENNY

birthday XD;hoped he will grow to 183.5 =)

click his big name for his blog XD,too much of tbs stuffs resulted us in doing stunts.=X this is called"xue yi zhi yong".HAHS.
18 shrucks you know;first was great,second was shrucks.third will be...let us await for it 18 days from now.I thought it would also take that "long" to go;but it didn't.why.why.WHY.
maybe I should just delete away your contact,so that I won't sms you,even for such a trivial thing.When can I ever learn and not be so tootpid.He won't turn back,see all his replies are so direct to the point and nothing more.He is not interested in your life and you,not anymore.Stop being a silly can.I really had enough of this me.SHRUCKS.

added ons..
know what!!we were lost in NYP carpark for freaking 10 minutes.We left audi at 1010 and back to the same place at 1020.shrucks and on the way someone,someone was screaming "help",so cute of her,and we were all laughing like mad,firstly we went to the short cut thinking we could leave ealier but ended up the gate was closed,so we decided to walk to another route and we saw a group of ppls walkin to another route.And clever us "followed" them,shrucks they were ended up in the same place as us(the gate).We decided to be good students and went back to the original route,and met lin juan on the way,easily recognised by her shirt & bag.Hahs.slacked(destress-ed) with ding @ mac,girl don't get too stressed up.JIA YOU XD

though it was jus a lil chat but is better than nothing.

hope-d that you would have a blog,at least I would know you are doing fine.
instead of me everyday cracking my pettie brain to guess.shrucks.but I know you won't.
it doesn't hurts but it matters.18days shrucks.let me see you in lala land,our paradise.=X.

I shouldn't be blogging now,still half-way copying management notes from sammy
shruks,dere are so much to =X,blame on myself for skipping & skipping lectures.
now is time to buck up & pay back,yeah right.Days after days I been telling myself
I got to study and in the end,I didn't,shruks.Alright I know I would,tmr at least.
AFA tutorial today was something what she could have done right from the start.
She didn't nag at all,for it was the last tutorial,she had to rush through stuffs.=))
eoc ICA4 was LOLS,I gonna "score" for sure with my great grammer and vocab.
shrucks.I got a pathetic grade for ICA3,but Im still contented
*thks,i bet you didn't guess that I said the 3 words to my lappy when I saw it.*
Had my first meal only after eoc,freaking hungry you know.project-ed awhile before AFA
and like last week,we went off half-way the usual peeps plus shermin.bad girl.
HAHS,back at home,trying to do some stuffs but the television was on.
& I can't resists the temptation and watch it till 10.the 8pm show was pure silly&dumb.
9pm show was nice.OMG that old man is really reallly traditional,will you accept my persue?
I laughed like hell,but kind of sadden,I just can't forget that day.Who else but you would do that.
shrucks.let me get back to study mode.bye for now.

okay no more emo post for me okay.
I told piggy & smiley I will be strong.
abit of recount for ytd,went to see wushu com
& like finally I saw ken.fierce would describe this crap.
had fun with peeps,jun yuan,her sis,jessen,her chuan,ce qing,geraldine & skye
they really know how to lame nor,esp skye.
I asked him why you never bi(compete)?
he told me he didn't brim his pencil box.
when they were asking what meal do we want?fast food.
we replied "slow food".HAHS.
was supposed to find wen & wei but I changed plan last min.
wasn't feeling well so headed home for a rest.
thought alot,I know is like dere is no point,mentally prepared for what he will says
but somehow I tear-ed when I know,when I send him the msg.
well,everything would be fine,after the rain,I would see rainbow.
sunday was just as any one,study day.I did my stat,except for parts that I don't know
started abit on accounts tutorial only to realise it was not needed.Arranged my files to know that
actually I did most of my works.=).But also to know that time is running out.
planning to study out especially for next week,a date with sam & ding already.
Any more names to add in?Hahs.shall get back to some works.
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back from a sneak out;went out to find wen & wei
we had fun,or should say I had fun,cos they were riding me around.
on wei bicycle.listen guys.if you wanna be my dearie you must be able to ride bicycle
i LOVES the feeling on the bike;so great =).but don't take me on a ride.
yups that it.will be missing them for weeks.
got to chiong for studies.JIA YOU!!

0508
this day i shall remember.always so memorable.
it could have been a 2 year aniversary with Henry,shruks.
you are not forgotten.Hi-Bye friends we may be now,but I still cares for you.
for afterall,you was once-d the one.and I know you too.for the thing,you make me realise
it wasn't a wrong decision to be once ur girl afterall,no matter how beng you are.
well,after afterall I only realise things are no longer the same,got it really crave on my heart.
As what kh says,is just that things are different now.boy I would accept it.
I know nothing would salvage this relationship anymore
as much as I wish I could do something,but no.Is enough I tell myself.
perhaps this is a better choice.okay is now over,all over.time to wake up from my dream
move on with life,I can't be stucked here forever.Time is what I need.best friends we shall be.

exams is coming in 12 days time,and yet I have not started with anything,shruks.Listen girl,
if you wanna get a bf,be with AFA,STATISTIC,MICROECONS & MANAGEMENT.This 4 great guys are good choices and you got to be with them until 22 Aug.

I don't wanna be stucked in this one man show

Is always me trying to do everything,what do I get in the end?

nothing,not even a reply from you.you would only if I say is a must.

Im sick & tired of seeing myself as a fool,so silly trying to sms you so that you would reply

trying to catch your attention,this is seems so dumb.I wanna delete you away from my contacts,delete away all our memories,but is hard,everytime I hears the msg tone,I hoped it will be you.But is never.To think of I even thought ken msg was from you.saying that "I got you silly.no batt".Yes Im a silly dumb dumb who clings on,despite telling myself I don't want to,I shouldn't.And now Im really letting go,boy,sorry I just got to say goodbye to you,my once loved.I thought I mean to you,I thought Im dear to you but only now then I realised all this is in the past.I don't wanna be a silly girl anymore,I don wanna do omc anymore.I will keep all my sweet memories in my heart & forget you.

somethings may not be the most important in life but still they would be remember.

missing out many entries about how my day was,so here a make up for them.

thurdsay;

Im going to take my grading exam in September.bless me =) Im grateful to ding & sher for tolerating my real real nonsense & madness.

yes.chilli spice up my life.Im known as a chilli padi for years.and yup today dere one senior who said this too.Corinne is small but mighty.She won't allow a setback to cause her downfall.Be strong girl,many are here for you.ps.ding loves to camwore =p

friday;

I went school for project ONLY.how blurred can I be,to not know dere wasn't econs lectures.Today is supposed to be excercise day but I din brim my attire so nope.Went to play swing at the children playground.OMG!I saw 4 familars faces coming by.gosh is choon hong,chia wei,guang yao & jessen.and they saw me playing.so malu.why does wushu peeps always see my tootpid sight.shrucks.Hanged around with the rest before goin to find bread,when we slacked at the club room.Then followed the seniors to tpy stadium.Internal feelings were confusing me,I hate this kind of situations.Im sitting with dewu peeps and wei ying peeps infront of me.direct opposite.I been thinking,should I go over to greet coach l8r,afterall this is a form of respect for all the years she taught me,and even till now I regards her as my coach cos she is the one who trained me to who Im today,though not a li-hai one,but imagine from 3 duan chang quan to international routine,she brought me this far.I did,went over but I did not do what I wanted,shrucks,I know she know I was there,this was a time of mixed feelings,I sat with them but cheering for my NYP team and JH.How shurcks can this be.Im thankful Im not the ones in the most shrucks situation.And as any typical occasions when I see hui ling,my x lao gong,she would ask got a bf liao?this is what I said to her,"just break".shrucks,shruks.Imagine if we are still together,everything that happened ytd would be totally different,what I would be saying to her is" yes,see that guy over there." and he would be sending me back,instead if me so pathetic going back on my own,I could have left earlier with bread but no I wanna see all,could leave with seniors but sometimes you just feel you are "extra",I was the only junior left at the ending of the 40 nan quan guys.shrucks.

sat;

Im going to see wushu com + doing my homeworks dere.shruks.ken I don't wanna see you.and Im not silly.

There is a point of life,when nothing matters.
And now this is the point of my life.
Im sick & tired of everything,give me a break.
I need time to think through,to let go,to forget.
I wish-ed for alternatives but I know they are impossible.

people let takes this as a post for yesterday de yesterday.

why?cos the post ytd was so moody.I don't like it

in fact most of my posts are.lols.after that day.

okay it was a family day,went to 3 shopping centres

giant,ikea,courts.great time I would say.

we(sis & me) behaved like kids that had never been to a supermarket

and this is what we did.

omg.but I prefer myself this way.full of nonsense & laughter.
love me;hate me you decide.
times spend with them are really so precious that I forsake wushu
it means...
but well,I got to be used to the fact.or shall I say "ACCEPT IT GIRL"
hmm at ikea was fun.fun.fun
& this is evidence that Im NOT the only camwore siao at home

this is my 23 years old brother.OMG!!
dinner was nice,especially fried beancurd.my FAV.
then went to a place where I started to think
does religion really matters??who(religion) do I really believe in??
god(christ)did brought me something during sec 3.
god(taoist)is always been with me since young
god(buddhist)call my house you hear it.
i don't know how shall I say this,but I do believe in the existence of all god
& respect them.anyway it doesn't really matters.
cos believing in myself is the best=)

I know afterall,I don't mean anything.perhaps I was too.too sensitive
but.but I just see it this way.