the truth reveals

you,
Yes I think Im a BIG fool
that you can fool me through
I really can't help to laugh at your doings
Come on,can you fake more
that I would really not know you
How do you wann me to react?
Im not that heartless to forget you
Though I really hate to remember you


you,
Im not going to be ''deceive'' by you anymore
those care,messages and whatever
What for bothers when you already have her
That doesn't hurts the most
The thing is I placed my trust on you
but you proved me wrong


you,
I know you would remember your promise
but you will never fufil them
cos it's hardly possible now


you,
those followings contacts had deleted/blocked you from msn
I expected your email and true enough
it was in one of them
but I figure out why we used to be so close


you,
I really don't know what what would be my expression
if one day I would see you again


Im so thankful that I could not list down anymore you
this are enough for me to endure
every truth hurts
because all of you are once so dear to me
you brought me smiles,love,care,joy
yet more sadness than joy
Stop fooling me,
and yes I know you are rejoicing over my sadness.

maybe

For some whatever nonsense reasons
I can't sign in msn,not even hotmail!!
That I can't upload the pics we took today
shall make do with the ones I ''kop'' from Jesline

Yes the first ever ones that I posted
with me wearing specs!!
Today was rather a good day,since is ponten day as what uncle said
Went for moive @ PS with girlfriends
Yes we watched L-changes the world,and I know J is totally mad over L
then went for some walk walk around
& we got back super early since we are guai kids +.+


Sometimes I really wondered if you are the one
I knew you as long as I knew him
You are th one who sheltered me when he's there
You are th one who brought me smiles
Once again,Im searching for th unknown

=EDITED=
Yes I can bang my head against the wall
For not even knowing your c. name
For goodness sick,I seriously think Im a totally failed gf
Yes I can't recall me knowing bbf likings/hate
The only things I knew is he's enthu in sports,a chirstian
& we are persuing a same love,wushu blah blah blah
What others things do I know of him,pratically nothing
I stepped into his world but just the superficial one
Yes and for you I don't even guessed that was you
omg,this is how failed I can get.
please I hope to know that you had gotten over me
the flowers are abudunt outside
but I don't understand why do I know so much abt fbf
& every memories seems to be returning
especially at the fact that th place
is also part of our memories
this totally sucks

fated/not fated

Been working for th past few days
@ th most familar place where I would see
th most familar peoples
& there's no doubt I saw many many
now friend/old friend/op ppl
and super surprised tt my dearest HL remembered my bday (:
& seeing my beloved dearies Jia Wen & Kai En
happy birthday to you my dearest LAO GONG Jia Wen
You are finally 16th,NOT 18th hor
have a (: day ahead
& last long with your bf
I don't know how you became my real one
tt active girl came asking me
wow got lao gong ar,and sending me th scandal pic of tt day
Im suddenly reminded of how ''close'' we used to be
a super funny sj.r/s
& my day ended with a nice catch up with my guardian angel-the reverse

God should know how would I react if I see you
I been imagining 100 and 100s of scenarios
please please I don't need to see you to know your existence

last paper

Finally Im back
which means that ALL the Buisness Management Year 1 papers
are OVER.
Papers were manageable except for POA!!
I would be thankful to get a D
not Distinction but the grade D = PASS
but whatever it is there's no point dwelling
shall wait for a month of so before knowing the disatrous results I got
& now that is over
thats a call for celebration of cos
not forgetting that it means 11 more days to Thai (:
Im super excited about it,cos it meant SHOPPING
and of cos more time with family (:
We just had a so called workers reunion dinner @ 16(no more ang pow!!)
& this reminded me I got to get some rest
tml's work day!!

th eight & counting
Im going on,perfectly fine
but I just need to know that you'r doing well

& please don't let me&you be so fated
I saw your bestie already.

Jia you & Good luck to all taking the paper tml!!
Statistical Theory for Business
We gonna make it even though our lectures were ____

Happy Birthday to ASTRO BOY/girl
Good luck for everything & yes SUPER JIA YOU in
Wushu
I miss training terribly but due to time constraints & unforseen circumstances
I would be continue to be MIA-ing till perhaps March

Last but not least
to the srongest man in BQD
Stay strong & cheer up (:
I hope to hear your nonsenstical craps soon

yet another

Happy valentine day (:
Special dedication of this rose to all my beloved girlfriends & boy-friends
Its yet another day to celebrate with your loved one
& yes Im celebrating with the 4 greatest guy of all
Statistic,Macroeconomics,Principle of Accounting & Marketing
this is how ''xin fu'' Im.HAHA.
my fbf,where are you?

A reunion with OP girlfriends on chu xi
I think this trip is worthwhile
at the fact that AH PANG is no longer teaching
but it's a good gathering with teahers & friends (:
th rest of th new year is spent doing the following
-pai nian
-eat
-gamble
-play psp
-watch tv
-movie CJ7(I wann the cutie soft toy!!)
-kbox
-praying
A special new year spent with family,is a rare time
4 days together (:
& yes I know the rest of the days is to
STUDY!!

happy new year (:
ilu my girlfriends

silence doesn't mean consents
appreciation doesn't mean actions

I wished

A little add on for yesterday
I saw elaine.
& what she posted abt me on her blog was so contradicting
''like her life is super relax okay''
& I was left laughing
yeah if only my life could be like what she said
I would be the happiest girl on earth!
& today I saw andy when I was shoop-ing
and as usual I only saw him when he's out of job
so cannot qiao this gor gor a big meal
I wanna see my rest of brothers too!
& yeah my daddy THOMAS LIN GUO REN
I missed him like a year and I had not seen his face yet man!
next few days would be working days for me
JIA YOU to myself


& note to J,stay strong (:


bbf,I need a forget pill to forget your existence
I suddenly found myself recalling
it been a year since I left wbf
& it been months since I heard abt fbf
tell me when can I get my tbf
I know it would be a lonely valentine again

recount.

I had said I won't touch on the issue anymore
So I would leave it as it is.
Any explaination would be regarded as yan shi if this carries on
So if you are my friend,you would be my friend.
Thats all I wann to say on this.

Tracked memories to Wed
Performance was over (:
Though not pretty smoothly
plus the stress I was facing
my ancestors(B&B) are keeping a close watch one me!
But still I guessed the overall performance for both days was
GREAT!
Now is time for some pictures!

Our warriors!This is cool man!
The whities power!We may not be as impressive as seniors
but one day we would.And yeah this is what I meant
those nu zhong hao jie
we do have our feminine side alrights& last but not least the NYP Wushu Team PS: our astro boy(girl) is MIA in all these pic due to her Jap test
Slacked around with Shi ping
We talked for hours on wushu
Our past stories,experiences,journey in NYP
I agrees with her,
how many would be willing to learn right from the basic
when they have years of experience
when they are trained in international routine
& this is why Im saluting to all those who are in the team
who had learnt wushu in our secondary schools
JIA YOU!
Heading advices,I got a target for myself
that is to do better for everything
& I could see myself making a good start
I guessed this was partly due to pressure I faced
I need to show my ancestors I have not deproved but improved
& yes Eric came back after some MIA weeks
Its good to see him back cos he's one who can bond us together

I really don't understand
why do I have to face you everyday!
but still good luck

Thurday
I went ahead for training with the company of
BON,Jasmine and Shermaine.
CJ was teaching us new stuffs since there were onli
xiao mao liang shan zhi
& there were lots of cannot do this outside scene
kick gonna have a break till march
so is time for a good rest and think over

Friday
was a (: day
cos I went out shopping with Qi & Yi
thats cool when we been missing Yi since long time
& is high time to get cny clothings

Short hours we may spend with each others
but they are really cherished
& Im looking foward to tuesday gathering at OP if possible


If you realised is 2 again.
where is the one who would lend me his shoulder
& tell me everything gonna be fine