I don't like it this way

Life's contradicting.
I can't understand why am I caring for those
Who doesn't give a damn for what I've done
I give one word to them-perfectionist.
& yet to those who are willing to sacrifice almost everything for me
I don't even give a damn, and can't even say sorry


I feel like Im a silly dumb dumb.
I ain't emo
But this is just a realistic situation Im facing


Performance went pretty smoothly today
Though me & jt had a ''cross session''
Way to improve on.
Cudgel =ssss
Im afraid of one thing!
Haish.

A dream

Maybe you could say is Qiao He.
I went to Futsing for my dinner yesterday
& yeah just as what I thought
I really saw people I know though not the one I expected
Its good (:
The dinner was from Yan Ge, same as last week
Not bad, a nice friendly dinner with family and relatives.
I love my Sundays, cos I would be spending them with family
& doing buddhism stuffs.
Though it implies lesser time on W & Y.
I have a dream, I hope one day it would come true!


Last week was just as hetic as it could be
Less sleeping time, more working time.
Not to mention, I feel we are FL.
But the experiences gained are great and friends we know are nice.
Having lunch with the girls, all from different outlets.
Yes this is what we call team bonding!
Life at school is great.
Not to mention wushu!
A jokeful Wednesday training.
We were enjoying training under the rain!lols.
I still can't get my cudgel right =x
A nice meal @ Mac, Hao Jun came back specially to eat with us
The few of us waited for blur king Wei Mun
All these little details makes my day.
I love Friday (:
I got a little gift from Li Yan sweetie!
plus plus
The little plannings for Yeye Bday all work out
I guessed we really shocked him
The whole 40+50 of us who shouted
Happy Bday Coach!
Than we gave him our little gift of a laptop carrier
Great minds thinks alike I guess
The other group of wushu ppls also gave him one
& I then know Adidas got laptop sleeve one.
Okay Im slow.
Happy Bday to Raymond Coach & Ta Shi Tian Bo
A pity I don't feng sheng su
But heard from Mum, the other is super happy also!
You know what making people happy
Im super happy ((:

Take note please

Please get rid of these asap.

1)Wierd bad temper = fierce fierce me!
2)Sotongness = forget bring keys!
3)Blurness = can think $1.65 is cheaper than $1.30
4)Crazyness = buy lime green & bright orange
5)Highness = Say stupid things in FRIENDZ, the girls know the best

Message sent to Corinne Soh

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Sorry is all that I could say to you
Yes,you are right
No doubt the past cannot be erased
But yet it's buried in my heart long ago
I can't love you and I would never love you
Forgive me & forget me
This is all I can ask from you
Lets put a full stop to everything

Where are my carefree days?

I miss my carefree days!
Days are always piled with stuffs =x
Even resulting in lesser training times
Though some I knew it was worth it,like the dinner ytd.
Lots of up and downs this week.
Somethings brought smiles on my face (:
But some are just so ass-h.
On a brighter note,
I get to know more MSC peeps as we work tgt
Under the same roof (:
Funs working with the girls
Angelyn,Charlotte and Hoon Cheng
In wushu,
We completed our cudgel in one day!
Though I don't think it had gotten totally into me.
Especially the left side one =x
Gotta buck up more.
Grading, I guess is still a long way for me
Warm up was hilarious and yet a failure to me.
I did stupid stuffs =x
Just so suddenly I thought I lost the speech of words.
Yeah, my chinese suddenly became so LAN!
I hope to improve on (:
I don't wanna disappoint those who believe in me
Family wise,
Lesser time spent but hopefully ytd did make up a bit
Plus tml ubin outing would!
Im looking forward to tml.
Fang Sheng!!


& happy bday to my 2 dearest god brothers
Ser Wei & Gerald
You are not forgotten!
& of cos happy graduation to all my sweeties
They are finally graduating from OPSS.
Yeah reflecting that Im old already.
2 years older
B,somehow I wondered if you remembered those days.

TEP, a whole new start

Apparently I have not been updating
Thanks to my everbusy schedule for the last week
My last 7 days, just short recount for them!

Sunday & Monday
Our trip to KL-An Pang Jiu Wang Ye
A whole new experiencing trip
The temple were so so different from Singapores one
Filled with wei dao,seriously you need to be there to feel the difference
I like the idea that they have a ''miao hui'' thingy!
Is like travel back to the past
But the whole journey on the bus wasn't tt great
Cos I didn't get to sleep much
Than it was Genting time
More of walking around plus eating dum sim (:
Not forgetting our little meaningful things we did!
I still remember how I used to yearn to go Genting in the past
Mei and me would get so excited that we can't fall asleep
The previous day and on the bus trip
But now to me,it seems to lost its meaning
I no longer play the outdoor/indoor games
& yet I can't enter casino- still 3 years away
So is actuallt pretty boring for me to go there
But nevertheless is great to be there
Bcos of the fresh air and holiday feelings
Temporary escape from all troubles!
I hope for a Genting Trip with whole family
Thats includes Ryan!!



Tuesday
Marks the start of my term which I call it
Im down for MSC-FRIENDZ for the next 9 weeks
People!Please visit me and of cos show some support!
& yeah needless to say the rest of the day is followed by
Trainings and endless talk till 5 plus
Is a whole new starts cos basically among the 4 of us
I know none of the 3
Angelyn(my shift partner),charlotte,hoon cheng
But well at least I got Mei Xuan,Madinah & Cordelia and some others
Also down in MSC
HX in in MSC,but sian la,not in the same team
If not I can expect endless crap from him.Haha
I was so dead tired around 7 plus
That I wasn't talking like I used to
Haha now YY has realised tt when Im tired,I got the sad sad face.
But contradicting I taught better when Im dead beat
This is what JY told me (:


Wednesday
A full day of TEP training
POS system,stock take and all
One tough day, not to mention wushu was right after
When everything ended
Everything going on pretty well for training
Except the part where I did some funny stunts
Kneeled down on my own fingers!PAIN!!
& the rehearsal part,bad bad!
Cos I learn slow slow
Hopefylly things will get better
I miss my dao dao,which I left it at home!
Mac was fun as usual,our relaxing time


Thursday
How I wished I could be sleeping but nope
Another day for TEP
9 to 5, a whole lots of learning to be done
Plus pratising them
= Tiring.
3 days since I had a good rest
So I decided to take off from B and rested instead.


Friday
Last day of TEP training
We took over MSC-FRIENDZ on our own
One thing to be glad was tt we hit our target!
Good job girls, lets keep it up (:
& thanks to our seniors who taught us alot (:
Ended the day than went PK
Even though we are faced with more stress cos ..
But I supposed we make it through
All the groups are doing on well and on tracks
The adults that Im guiding!
EXPRESSO class I call them (:
Its actually a different experience when guiding them and the kids
Im thanksful Im given the chance
All these that I learnt cannot be found on normal trainings
I hope I could be better in terms of belt
Before I actually help out
But in a way, I know its a different experience
A tough yet good experience
With my own abilities I know the road is tough
But Im thanksful I always got them by my side
& those who never give up on me
Played basketball after everything ended
Eh okay la,I was walking around only!
My team = Wen Long,William and Jin Yao
Got 3 scorer le,so I can slack!
But the truth is:
Im afraid of balls can!
& yet they like to kiss me =x
They should know why
But is fun to see them playing!
Maybe one day I would try to really play!
But not now =p


Saturday
Some good resting time
With time spent with Mummy
It may be little but yet I enjoyed it
As each days goes by
I begin to really enjoy lessons with the kids
In the beginning I remember I don't really talk to them
But now Im the big kid there!
Haha just chatting around with the cuties (:
They actually would be better
& wish my little handsome prince
Happy Bday!
& yeah not to forget the journey back home
With the super coldly jokes by YY.
& a family dinner

Some reminders of the past
They become sweet little memories
Those day,those fun
I hope you enjoyed your day with your girl (:

Tortise will find its way back home

Its yet another sweet DAYYSS for me
The last week of holiday spent
EXTRAORDINARY MEANINGFULLY ((:


Thursday
Headed towards Msia with family
We got ourselves equipped with B.
Haha not as if S'pore don't have
But is much cheaper dere!
Went Aunty Mary house after shopping
The mother of ''10'' kids
Funniest car chasing session
At last Gor those wierdy stickers is ''worthy''


Friday
Rest @ home but not exactly
Headed out earlier to find Raymond,William,Wen Long earlier
Then went makan fish soup!
I been ''forced'' to complete my bowl
& the 2 were tempting me with thier photos of Wed!
A pretty nice place they went,hopefully next time
I would go with them
Yes, the water playground TEMPTED me!
Fa Dai
Training
Listening
Eating ''Tibits''
Chatting
& ya I was verbally taught how to play MAGIC
the game tt requries ENGLISH.dots!
So next time I would be a ''xiao yao nu''
Im impressed, seriously you are EXTRAORDINARY!
& I hope the dream will come true


Saturday
Mummy Bday (:
And her wish
Is for zhong sheng to duo li ku hai
her prezzie
A slice of ice cream cake, a lotus stand, kang nai xin,hair clip
Spent the whole day with her
Thanks to You, if not I wouldn't have the chance (:
Went Ju Si Ling with sister & her
Took a picture,shall post it someday
But I wanna say
Is like suddenly I realised again
The Buddha eyes is always looking downwards
Have you actually wondered what this means?
The xing liang,rong ren liang
Then went rao fo,buy flowers,eat Su
Went Lorong 30 to have a good meal of Su
WholeEarth Restaurant, its really a great place
For nice vege food (:
Than we walked all the way from Lorong 30 to Lorong 7
Passing by many many streets of Geylang
I know this word will bring about two words in your minds
Food & P.
But if you look closer and deeper
Though I don't know the actual statistic
I guessed it is the place with most tao/buddhism temples
Regardless of Mi Jiao,Da Chen,Xiao Chen,Guan Yin or what
They are all situated @ this place.
Blessing the thousands & millions
Down to 7 xiang for yao shi fo jing
Greeted the Lamas, Tian Bo ( monks)
After everythings over headed home in Xin Xin car
Cos the he say he not Jiu Jiu
The cutest joke, Mum best medicine would be
I love you chou by Dad!


Sunday
Made the effort to wake up earlier
Went Lorong 40 dao chang for fang sheng
In total,heard from Aunt Kylie
2000 plus were spent today on
fishes,crickets,frogs,birds & crabs
Is really baskets after basket of them were let go
Given a new life (:
Backed towards the sea
Its amazing when I see some fish which look dead
But after a while they fan sheng and swim towards their home
Is like xian yu fan sheng!
We have to cut away the strings tying the crabs
Is a good thing a aunty helped me
If nt I think the crabs very ke lian le
Thanks (:
No more live seafood for me!
Imagine its alive a moment & the next
Just because you wanna eat it,
It was killed.
& Im regrettful about live prawns especially
Remembering the steamboat session with
Thomas and company
We were pratically playing with live prawns
Laughing over when they are struggling for the last breath
Tts so cruel & yu chi of us!
In life there's more than this thing that I regretted
I did many mistakes & are still committing
What I hope is to minimize and do more good deeds
Ri Xing Yi Shan
Like what _ always like to say huh!
Go say someone is pretty/handsome!
But don't be sacarstic!
Donate a coin to charity
Buy tissue paper from old uncles
Helping others
In our little ways of kind deeds
The world would be a better place (:


Life have seriously become better for me
In fact many a times
I really get what I wished for
In many wierds way
The whole day outing on Saturday
The trip to Jiu Wang Ye later
I really appreaciate and thanks Buddha for them (:

A new chapter

Life is as usual
But filled with more meaning & compassion
And time spent more meaningfully (:


Sunday
Went to Yeo's Building for Guan Ding
Though I have almost 0 ideas whats going on
But I guessed it helps (:
A short dinner followed by bus-ing
Bugis!
Just a walk walk here and there
The place is pretty boring
Since when did I lost interest in SHOPPING?
I don't know


Monday
Which is also Chu Yi for the nine month
Meaning the start of celebration for Jiu Wang Ye
The great hero who died many many uncountable years ago
& yeah to pray we had Su for the whole day (:
Actually Su isn't that bad as what we think
Especially this few weeks
I got the opportunity to eat Su
Either in kopitiam or restuarant
Some of their dishes are nicer than chou one!
It will be my new xi guan to eat Sun on Chu Yi, Shi Fu
Of cos more to add on for this week I know
Cos Mummy Bday is on Saturday (:


Tuesday
I would consider this a really precious day to me
Cos I really learnt alot
It really set me thinking
Now I have a idea whats future would be like
I came to cherish time with family
The road ahead may be tough but I will hang on
Than a lunch cum dinner @ Siglap Killiney Kopitiam
Followed by a long journey back Yishun
Bedok to Yishun, not very fun eh
But the journey was worthwhile
5 minutes + 5 minutes
8 rounds
& the usuals ones
Last but not least one very cute person
Made a super funny call!
Haha the 3 of them hor really too cute le la!


Wednesday
Happy Children Day to all kids
Does that includes me?
Eh I know many are going to say Yes!
Whatever, young good mah x)
This is also NYP Wushu Steam Boat Outing Day
A great meal with everyone
& ya doubtless my table is the most noisy one!
Cos we have the Tofu Queen!
Okay the rest of us also contributed to the noise
Many funny jokes going around our table of cos!
Some really makes me squat down & stunt
Really little interaction with the juniors
But I hope we would have more outings like this
So we can HIGH FAN TIAN
The other highlight of the day event
Reappointment of committee members
A big Thanks to our old committee(sounds funny)
Jiang Da,Chia Wei,Jun Yuan,Shu Yan
& ya congratulations to my fellow mates
Chia Wei,Shu Yan,Wei Mun,Shi Ping
Wei Chong,Jing Ting,Guo Xiong,Wen Yi,Li Yan & me
My post: vice treasurer
Abit surprised at first
But Im happy about my job scope though not known yet
How come leii
Cos I got a little discussion with LY
I not ah long not runner
Than what am I?
Haha actually it doesn't matter what post we are holding
What matters is we put in our effort together
& make NYP Wushu prosper( sounds like CNY!)
Saw Da Lao Da Blog
We are still human!
Haha even the real president of a country is human
Maybe we should be proud of this cos means
We share a similarity with him!I know this is LAME
Back to the great day!
After steamboat We hanged around AMK ''stoning''
The guys
Hao Jun,Her Chuan,Alvin,Skye,Wei Mun,Zhong Ming,Guo Xiong
The girls
Wu Shan,Shi Ping,Jing Ting & me
And meanwhile at this time
My ''3 carat braclet'' drop off thanks to Tofu Queen
No offence la,I just find her super cute!
& all the funny little stuffs
Like her my ''paws'' zhua on Her Chuan hands
The gays acts, toilet trips and all
At last we decided to head towards Bugis
Didn't intended to go at first
Cos I just went dere not long ago
But end of the 3 of us went with them again
Arcade time
I wanted to play BB
But Ping stopped me say later
the ball hit back & hit people!
Haha this is how PRO Im at BB
Any challengers? Haha
So went to see around what the rest are playing
Bu Wan Dan Ye Nen Gan Shou Dao Wan De Ren De Kuai Le
The car race, ghost hitting...
But the most fun would be the soccer match
the guys - Wei Mun & Guo Xiong
vs
the girls- Jing Ting,Shi Ping & me
Haha and of cos the 50 cents issue!
Than a long journey of train-ing
I sat all the way with Wei Mun & Guo Xiong
towards Boon Lay to find Mummy & all
This added on to the meaningful day
Cos it been long since I helped out at stall
& whatmore me and xiao mei went & bought her a gift
Last but not least a 10 minutes rush supper
My day is great ((:


Last but not least
Thanks Brother for loving us so much
Everything would be fine I hope!