It would never come true.

I hope my fear won't come true
It won't be a good thing if it come true
It will spoil everything, yeah everything
I just like the way things are now
It doesn't have to go any better

Jian Dan Ye Shi Xin Fu

Have not updated for days.
Not cos Im busy or what but
rather Im spending more time with family

Monday
Full time resting & part time slacking
Watch the love show ending- 7pm one
I only got one thing to say
Jia Wei very very handsome
When I first watch the show was around Aug
Exam period, so evening are frees.
But after exam periods.
All training resumes = no suai ge watch.
Tts not the point, he's just so suai can!
In the noon,so qiao
Yu Le Bai Fen Bai was showing Vanness Wu part!
One of my idols.
I USED to go crazy over Liu Xing Hua Yuan!
& of cos him,the li zhi tang suai ge
facts shown again,6/7 years liao!
Xiao mei also now grown to Ah girl le.
At late night Brother drove us to Msia for mum mum
Had wanton & ''abalone'' noodles.
A great meal, what matters isn't what was on the table
It may be a simple dish or those da yu da rou
But what fills the content is who is with you.
Thats make a sweet loving Monday with family
So in conclusion my monday is good.



Tuesday
A whole day out with family & Kylie Aunt
Went Geylang Lorong 7 if Im not wrong
Don't anyhow think can!
Geylang is more than a place with P.
But full with wonders & goodness if you realised.
Through the day, though I have to make some sacrifices
But it was definitely meaningful
I learnt alot of things
& Im happier happier.
This is a kind of feelings I have not feel for long.
Especially when life is sian-ing.
Jian Dan Ye Shi Xin Fu

Wednesday
Went with Mummy to fetch Ryan
My little boy, I seriously know why Mums are thin
Cos they have to run after their kids
Fearing that they fall down or what.
I love kids, even though at times they really gonna
QI SI me,but they are adorable in their own ways.
Seriously not only Ryan can show me
But those little kids too (:
Then gor drove us to find Papa
One big family having lunch together
But with Angel Jie missing cos she's at work!
I love this kind of times, though short but really sweet (:
& I know my schedule upcoming would not permit much time
for my Wednesday to be FREE!
Night time was Wushu
One good one, with hiong training but fun!
Skye came back!
Its great to see old friends back after months
Learnt lian pu quan
I know is still a long way to grading
One more plus plus plus tao lu to go!
Hopefully we can make it before end of 2008
Mac was fun,with our added B&B jokes


Thursday
Just a typical thursday
But Im just dead tired.
1500000 million leii!Haha
We got children day gift!!
Its really damn cute can, I mean the whole thing.
Yeah than I still XIAO MEI MEI ma
So can celebrate Children Day

Go!Go!Go!

Nice Sunday


Happy.
Its a nice experience
Not forgetting it was fun ''watching''
& I've been a good girl.DOTS!
TY
But still Im abit overexhausted


I miss my besties!
They are so so busy with work
Didn't meet up with them for long
Xcept for Wan Qi for a short dinner
My holiday in a way is meaningful
But yet I got almost nothing to do
When I should be doing alot of things
This is how contradicting.


Why?
I get back the same feelings
That it will end as RY one.
I don't want this to be the case

TCML

Tuesday
Almost driven crazy by stress.
Im glad Im still surviving well
Its so true
I need to find the feeling!
Very tired but I will hang on.


Wednesday
Only for my ryan.
I would make a special trip
Down to bugis just for a lunch
Bro than drove us to Golden Mile
For the so called ''nice'' steam boat
It wasn't tt good
But yet I got the xin fu de feeling
Somehow I learn to zhen xi
Decision has been made, but I do hope it will change!
Xin Fu can be so easy & yet hard
I don't wish to change my life again
Than gor drove me back to YCK!
But he went the wrong way.duh.
& I ended up taking a wrong bus 854
Which went towards Yishun side can!
But still I made it in time for training
Usual stuffs, usual people but more stress
We learnt lian pu quan today
Nice!
Celebrated the Sept Babies Bday
Jiang Da, Shu Yan & Shi Ping!
Happy Birthday to you guys
Enjoy!
& to Shi Ping
Yi Lu Shun Feng (:
Had a hao xiao time
With all the funny stuffs!
Today I lang fei shi wu
Cos my helper's sick
Man, remember to eat med wor
If not friday no ppl pei me crap!

LOVES HAPPY FAMILY

Wanted to blog out a whole chunk of words
But Im too tired.
Went for a 2 days Msia Batu Pahat trip
My second home town
All I can say it was a great one spent with my
BELOVED BIG FAMILY.
May love last long for Apple jie & husband

Me, 2nd Gu Gu,Mummy
Gu gu almost know everyone in hometown
Cos wherever we go
She would be saying hi or what to ppls
I won't get lost in batu pahat
Cos I could go to the market
& ya simply say who my ah ma was
They would know where I wanna go

The sweety keep asking me
Jie jie hold my hands!
So cute! Btw her head is bigger than mine can!
My tang jie & me
Okay what I heard is she should be getting M next year
& my tang mei who is 15 is e.
I went duh.
Basically words can't describe how special this trip was
I miss my ah bei ah hm!
Hopefully I can make it to celebrate ah ma bday.
Backed home = dead tired
But still I gotta check results
Which were out damn slow =x
Expected, I didn't score as well as last term
But still there's Bs which brighten up my day
Buck up for next term ba!
Mus chiong back my GPA.


I remember that day
I was wearing your jacket
I remember the warmth
But suddenly I realised everything's different now


& for you
I realised we are from two different world
Even if one day we are together
I know what's the ending

DON'T LOOK FOR ME-im away.

Off to Msia for a wedding.
Anybody looking for me
Please text me,though I won't reply(damn ex)
Elsewise see ya around then.
Good bye.
Would be back by Tues = RESULTS RELEASE!
=(

I don't need a repeat

They are my xin fu de gen yuan

Im afraid history might repeat
What happened 3 years ago would haunt us again
I don't wish to grow up
3 years ago,I can't fully understand
Still a young chappy kids then
But now as I get older
I know whats really going on
But yet there's nothing I could do
I wish I could do something
I wish I could speak up what I think
Ytd talk sort of waken me
When I learn how to differentiate between right&wrong
Here comes the challenge
Which I could do nothing
One person decison is not solely on that person
It involves everyone
Or for the worst case,their fates will determine mine
I can't imagine how we are going to be in one month time
I hope we still remain the same,no changes
We all faced a cruel truth together then
It took me lots of courage and time
Half a year to speak the truths to my besties
I remembered I gave up something then
I don't wish to gave it up again
I seriously don't wish to go through everything again
Would you be by my side & tell me
With you around
Everything gonna be alright
Tell me the way I should go
Cherish & Treasure what I've
This is all I can do

Fated or not.

Months after months
It been so long since I last saw him
Seriously didn't expect I would see him
so late and what more to the same station
Feelings faded,totally
He no longer holds the place within
But onced loved,forever love
Recalling memories
They were once so sweet and now so memorable
I used to be so xin fu.
Am I now?
You hold the key to the answer
But would you tell me the truth?

True/False

Today wasn't as bad as I thought
Though ytd stuffs was still bothering me
Training was fufilling.
Nice warm up.
Especially when Wei Han Coach was like pulling
my legs for stretches, Shi Ping not spared too
Seriously ''song'' le.
Should have heed his advice ytd
I got myself my sweetie broadsword.
But somehow I think it can't last long
My 2 day old baby is already abit ''y''
I will treat you nicely okie!
Short ti tuis,followed by tie gao yao.
Running here and there.
Bad stamina,I seriously de-prove.
Some rest and 5 bu quan and such.
8 jiao ma,maybe I can be shot in the head.
What has to be faced will eventually have to face
But I felt so much relief.
Am sorry, all the mixtures of feelings.
At least is over.
Then learn cudgel taught by Guo Xiong
I don't know why
For the whole day I keep calling him
GJ.lols.
Cudgel was alright,just that.
I did stupid stuffs for the starting move
& kena la.=xx
This is call good memory of old routines.
4 duan.faints.shhot me!
Ended training, mac mac
Today Im so broke
I used my ez-link card to pay can.
2 blue notes almost all gone ytd
And I know almost 2 will be gone tml plus fri
I need money.
Seriously thinking that I should go for the job interview
That Wan Qi recommended.
Trip back home.
With all the gays and les talk
Business talk


The line between a truth and a false
Somehow I can't see it
I wished it was real
Though it sounds so silly
Sometimes I wondered if we had got too close
That we had forgotten our roles

Wondering.
Pondering.
Thinking.
I know the road ahead is not easy
One tough one,full of obstacle
One huge one dawned on me today
It hurts.
But I know this is life
I got to accept and move on
Change and be better
This is all I can.
Root is where I start.
No matter how far leaves branches out
It still goes back to one.
But without the leaves it won't grow
I get it.


Thanks for being there
Never giving me up
No matter how bad I was
I hope one day I can prove you
I really grown


Your words are the one that give me strength
Your recognition, or just you being there
I know no matter how tough
You would be there for me if I need it


Im tired.
Physically and mentally.
Good night.

over the rainbow

Over the rainbow.
Its the same old thing again!
Yes finally after so long
Im back to it x)
& I realised I got a hit count 17.

S vs S

Such a sweet Saturday noon
Which Im supposed to be catching a movie
with wushu peeps
But yet Im stucked at home.
Wasn't feeling well in the morning
So I chose to rest at home =x
Yesterday was pretty great but tired
Met up with Grace
And we had a 2 hour long lunch/dinner
@ Fish&Co
Cos she went off getting her stuffs
and I went off getting mine!lols
But did abit of catch up!
We would meet up soon after her exams
Its so strange how we could be friends
And ya she would seriously lend me her ears
Especially on Fridays nights
The trip of 980 to home,I would nag her to call me
& crap to her on everything
Cos the journey is pretty long
But now I changed to train-ing.
Got our ''suai'' guys to company me.
Yesterday PK.
Not much sweat but I lost many brain cells.
And almost ....
Jin Yao better appear!
If not I gonna grow older
The batch of cutest one
Supper only left with me,Her Chuan and Wen Long
But we are still that noisy.
Me happily planning my ''schedule'' for them
Then we were talking on the F4s
The 4 of the behinds
Dao Ming Si = ....
Mei Zhou = .....
Xi Men = Wen Long
Hua Ze Lei = Her Chuan
He self proclaimed one!
lols,how can he be? when he's so NOISY!
Okay he self claim only when he meet me
He is.
I don't believe!Hehe
Then we were debating on Suai vs Suai
which is handsome vs unlucky
& the endless NS talk.


Was that what you really meant
Or was it just a casual remark

?

How does a spring works?
Before I figure it out.
I guess I need a good rest.
Physically and mentally tired
& something's lacking.
Since that day

Simple but sweet

Sunday
Great dinner @ Fu Chou Hui Guan
With lots of chats and stuffs
Nice performance,nice food,nice people
& not to forget the 2 hours trip of Mrt.

Monday
Family day with mummy and sis
It been long since we went out together
Loves them
Went to chinatown fo ya si
then to maxwell market for ham ci peng
yummy food (:
but the oil is really scary,blacker than ink okay!

Tuesday
Short family day cos Angel jie got leave
Gor brought us out for dinner
Nice one,been long since we sat together
Went early but didn't train much
Cos it was raining non stop
Roof top air con room = ah choo!
Kids = lovely and funny
I couldn't imagine how I CREATED a first
hahaha.

Wed
Slacking day at home than to wushu
I really hope I could finish 2 routine in 2 months
Hopefully.
Mac was nice
cos we aint rushing for time
Slacking around talk talk
Way back home, Her Chuan kept repeating
He saved me and shi ping.
Cos one car drove pass us and ''splashed'' rain on us.
And he was beside me
So he sheltered us!Haha.
But end up my half leg also wet la.
Trained back, si Her Chuan and Guo Xiong bully me!
Haha okay end of my day.