Im just too Corinne,
the girl who accepted the happiness and rejects the sadness.
This applies to my daily life
and most importantly how I understand people.

Ytd was a special day,on the bad side
I had a talk with someone,a dear friend.
Who told me I have changed.
Im too ______.
And yeah indeed,I thought through many times recently.
But I refuses to admit it.
Im no longer the girl before.
Two major issues would have been the cause of it.
Time would heal everything,
and perhaps I would change back,
or become a better corinne.

I would learn to understand people.
I would learn to be a better friend.
I would learn to not take everything for granted.
I would learn to love someone wholeheartedly.
I would learn to appreciate,that would beat all others.

This was what someone dearest to me taught me,
but I learnt only when he left me forever.
Afterall,I always refuses to admit one thing.
I don't know you.
I only know you as a boyfriend,I only seen a side of you.
I have seen you as a wonderful one,but not the whole you.
And I know I would never have a chance to know you again.
Is a regrett that till now I found silly reasons
to explain why we aren't together.
Or perhaps we wasn't together at all if we would to put it bluntly.
Its too short for us to know each other.
Infatuation,would had been a better choice of word.
Yet I believe it was love.

Like what a friend taught me today.
People are different when they met with different people.
So I went on thinking..
When is a person real,when is the person fake.
Can I choose not to know???
I rather believe that people are true in their words and action.
So I think and believes that
not all guys are jerk/idiot/bastard
and not have ___ on their mind.
I looked around and I know there are many nice ones around.
Is just that human beings(me & you) are too choosy and greedy.
We set high expectation and standards.
We would prefer number 1 to number 2.
And cos of this,I lost someone.
I feel we were both number 2 in each other.
Never the first,if not we could have been together as a happy couple.
If you give me a second chance,I would do it.
But somethings once gone are forever gone.
Perhaps they would be the one and only time.
Perhaps not,how am we to know.
No one is perfect.
I would like to have a bf who is a mixture of
B,E,L,H,K,T,W,Y,Z
this is IMPPOSIBLE.
I call this day dream.
To accept flaws is what I need to.

& the most impt thing for me to learn now is to
SLEEP EARLY.
its 4.47 am,time for bed.
nights.

perhaps forever is not forever.