Trust, does such word exist.

Im really fucked now.
Damn, for every effort I put into the project
Nothing gonna pay off
Cos we could have jolly well submitted in
An older version of my part.
All the 11am to 5pm work I had did
Could jolly well be gone.
& not to mention we exceeded the page limit
The conclusion is totally off point.
We shouldn't have trust J. in any time.
Executive summary is ain't better.
If I retain my bloody MM.
I would seriously thank you.s
I've endured long enough.
I've never spoke directly on efforts
But what do I receive in the end.
Nothing.
Constant events had broke my trust on people
In this realistic world
I could find less than 10 person I could trust totally.
Friends betraying and backstabbing.
I've experience once to know who are true friends
Promises broken and all those rubbish
They are lies to me.
Is not one fuckin incident that frustrated me.
LOLS.
I had enough of everything.
For 6 years I knew my dear friend.
I had never seen her lose temper or so stress
But thanks to who.
We lost totally.
Well, my day aint so bad to realise all this.
At least my noon plus eve was enjoyable.
Took a day off from work
I was supposed to meet Wen Long,William and Jeremy
@ 2.
But none of them were early.lols.
WL came and we went shopping around
Went couple lab to see if I could find the ring
YY is looking for, saw Qiu Ting
Bought my small lunch and went to meet the 2.
LOLS.
Bought the tickets for the dark knight.
WL and Jer. are the cut out for treasurer.
They were busy counting.
While me and Wil were slacking.
Caught an eye on one movie which would be realeased next wk.
Haha so we watch the movie.
I would give it a 3.5/5 rating.
Not too bad, the effects and story line.
But kind of disguting.lols.
Show ended,Jer. left and the rest of us
Went makan.chat chat
W&W acc me to wait for the dear 169 for almost 30 minutes.
funny thing was we were not q-ing
& people actually q bhind WL.
Damn funny can,and the curve thing came out.
Haha.
Then I started suaning them
Cos they are pratically seeing each other everyday.lols.
Crap crap bus come.
Homed for my endless work
and yeah you know what happened.
I've got time to blog but I didn't cos I wanted this day.
20 July 2008.
Exact one year.
This is how long I've been single
and it would go on
I really can't see why most people
would think Im attached.like so duh.
When I don't even have time for myself
The word relationship seems stupid.
Im not anti r/s.
sometimes when I walked alone.
Seeing couples walking together.
I do envy.
When Im tired.
I need a resting shoulder.
When everything goes wrong like now.
I need someone to be there to tell me
It would be alright.
I aint so strong as you perceived but I ain't weak too.
Now to my
only studies,family,true friends
and of cos
Wushu matters.
And I was dunno telling who
I would choose wushu over studies.
If I need to make a choice.
I don't ace in wushu with all flying kicks.
but is just something I love.
at least I don't meet a bunch of ass in wushu.
I meet true friends.
& yeah I wish you could see this.
I chose to go for the mid autum thingy
which requires me to pay $58
rather than going back M'sia to see
some fucking faces who only knows $$
& treat my dad as a bank.
Ass.